I’m going to rant here. This is cheaper than therapy and the county has asked me to stop doing this on public transport so this is my best place. I’m going to put this in spoiler tags because this may be completely useless to anyone other than me.
[spoiler]Sullivan - WHAT THE H LL ARE YOU DOING?! W! T! F!
I’ve taken Sullivan’s “side” if you will for all of this. I have a young daughter myself. I would do anything to protect her. I’d jump on a handgrenade. I’d drag a flock of nuns with me if I thought that would make the difference. It’s biological, and it’s borderline irrational but there it is. And I just have to protect my daughter from ‘mundane’ threats, not creatures piercing the veil between worlds and stuff.
Rationally, in hindsight, I’m against what he did to Deidre shielding her from the world he saw. But I have complete understanding why he did it, and I can’t claim I wouldn’t do the exact same thing in his place. I probably would have. I might have done it twice.
Sullivan said in his notes his deepest wish was for Deidre to see the world he sees. That’s why the reversal spell even existed. That’s why he led us to it. That’s why the Book of Briars enabled him and helped us find him.
Is this the damned truth you really wanted her to see, Sullivan? Is this why Cole could have been flambéed? “Dear Deidre, I tried to steal you and your mother tried to kill me. Oh, and there’s no end to this path I created for you. Love you!” By the Creator’s Mighty Beard I am beyond pissed off at this. Writer her a damned note explaining it, and substitute ‘gun’ for ‘magic artifact’ and you could have told her this entire story without even mentioning Magiq at all. "I tried to steal you, your mom shot me and injured me, and our lives were ruined. ’ Same story and doesn’t involve world travel, a magical book jerking us around and smash a woman’s hopes and dreams into the rocks over and over.
When Deidre almost gave up two weeks ago and Sullivan posted a note in the journal saying “Don’t give up, Deidre”…is THIS why he didn’t want her to give up? So she could get to the REAL reason why she wanted to give up a few weeks from now when it was way more dramatic and emotionally devastating to her?
And the @The_Book_of_Briars , you’re not idle in all this. We devoted 2 entire fragments to finding, and casting a cure for Deidre, just so we could destroy her? I thought we were helping people here? What’s next? We’re going to free Portentica just so you can tell her her Santa Claus isn’t real?!
There’s one reason I’m not more angry about this (yeah, that could happen). I’ve reread Sullivan’s notes about Deidre, and more importantly about his own life. Sullivan didn’t have a choice to see what he saw. He regretted it, wondered if things could be otherwise. He wanted Deidre to see the best of what he saw, but not the worst. He didn’t know what to do.
The one potential, tiny, saving grace in this is this was Sullivan’s way of showing Deidre her true choice. Telling Deidre ‘hey you can be an average someone or a join a magiqal world!’ wasn’t a real choice. Would anyone chose the former there? He needed her to see the magiq, to experience it. He needed her to see the chase, the ups and downs of following a path like he and her mom had. He needed her to see all the best, and all the worst, even the worst possible outcome. Only then could she make a true choice.
Sullivan, you better have this ace up your sleeve. If not, I swear I will find your remains, dig you up, and kick your bony ass back and forth from each of the Six Corners to the next. I’m watching you and @The_Book_of_Briars closely. Do not F this up.[/spoiler]
There. I feel better now.